I'm caught up in the everyday trend
Tied up by invisible thread
Walking down a razor-thin edge
And I wake up tired, think I'm better off dead
Been a few months since I crossed over state lines
Talk to my mom, fake smiles over FaceTime
Drink all night till I can't walk a straight line
Feel so low, but I'm high at the same time
I can't keep my feet on the ground
And I'm nervous what you'll think of me now
I'm hoping that someone comes around
And helps me figure it out
I think that I should try to kill my ego
'Cause if I don't, my ego might kill me
I'm all grown up but somehow, lately
I'm acting like a fucking baby
I'm really not as happy as I seem
Still a little kid that can't make friends
Wanna be invited, but I won't attend
I been having bad dreams, my career could end
'Cause I slip up when I should've played pretend
Turned eighteen, and I left the city
I said, "I wanna be cool, I don't wanna be pretty"
Voices all came crashing down
And said, "You're too nice to run this town"
I can't keep my feet on the ground
And I'm nervous what you'll think of me now
I'm hoping that someone comes around
And helps me figure it out
I think that I should try to kill my ego
'Cause if I don't, my ego might kill me
I'm all grown up but somehow, lately
I'm acting like a fucking baby
I'm really not as happy as I seem
Nothing's as it seems
Yeah, nothing's as it seems
And I'm all grown up but somehow, lately
I'm acting like a fucking baby
I'm really not that happy being me
I don't like the lie I'm living
I'm way too nice and too forgiving
I wanna go back to the beginning
When it all felt right
A rooftop, Lower East Side, I'm singing
Didn't give a fuck if I was winning
It's all done now, so who am I kidding?
I'm doing way worse than I'm admitting
I think that I should try to kill my ego
'Cause if I don't, my ego might kill me
I'm all grown up but somehow, lately
I'm acting like a fucking baby
I'm really not as happy as I seem
Nothing's as it seems
Yeah, nothing's as it seems
And I'm all grown up but somehow, lately
I'm acting like a fucking baby
I'm really not that happy being me
I'm caught up in the everyday trend Tied up by invisible thread Walking down a razor-thin edge And I wake up tired, think I'm better off dead Been a few months since I crossed over state lines Talk to my mom, fake smiles over FaceTime Drink all night till I can't walk a straight line Feel so low, but I'm high at the same time I can't keep my feet on the ground And I'm nervous what you'll think of me now I'm hoping that someone comes around And helps me figure it out I think that I should try to kill my ego 'Cause if I don't, my ego might kill me I'm all grown up but somehow, lately I'm acting like a fucking baby I'm really not as happy as I seem Still a little kid that can't make friends Wanna be invited, but I won't attend I been having bad dreams, my career could end 'Cause I slip up when I should've played pretend Turned eighteen, and I left the city I said, "I wanna be cool, I don't wanna be pretty" Voices all came crashing down And said, "You're too nice to run this town" I can't keep my feet on the ground And I'm nervous what you'll think of me now I'm hoping that someone comes around And helps me figure it out I think that I should try to kill my ego 'Cause if I don't, my ego might kill me I'm all grown up but somehow, lately I'm acting like a fucking baby I'm really not as happy as I seem Nothing's as it seems Yeah, nothing's as it seems And I'm all grown up but somehow, lately I'm acting like a fucking baby I'm really not that happy being me I don't like the lie I'm living I'm way too nice and too forgiving I wanna go back to the beginning When it all felt right A rooftop, Lower East Side, I'm singing Didn't give a fuck if I was winning It's all done now, so who am I kidding? I'm doing way worse than I'm admitting I think that I should try to kill my ego 'Cause if I don't, my ego might kill me I'm all grown up but somehow, lately I'm acting like a fucking baby I'm really not as happy as I seem Nothing's as it seems Yeah, nothing's as it seems And I'm all grown up but somehow, lately I'm acting like a fucking baby I'm really not that happy being me