Ego

I'm caught up in the everyday trend

Tied up by invisible thread

Walking down a razor-thin edge

And I wake up tired, think I'm better off dead

Been a few months since I crossed over state lines

Talk to my mom, fake smiles over FaceTime

Drink all night till I can't walk a straight line

Feel so low, but I'm high at the same time

I can't keep my feet on the ground

And I'm nervous what you'll think of me now

I'm hoping that someone comes around

And helps me figure it out

I think that I should try to kill my ego

'Cause if I don't, my ego might kill me

I'm all grown up but somehow, lately

I'm acting like a fucking baby

I'm really not as happy as I seem

Still a little kid that can't make friends

Wanna be invited, but I won't attend

I been having bad dreams, my career could end

'Cause I slip up when I should've played pretend

Turned eighteen, and I left the city

I said, "I wanna be cool, I don't wanna be pretty"

Voices all came crashing down

And said, "You're too nice to run this town"

I can't keep my feet on the ground

And I'm nervous what you'll think of me now

I'm hoping that someone comes around

And helps me figure it out

I think that I should try to kill my ego

'Cause if I don't, my ego might kill me

I'm all grown up but somehow, lately

I'm acting like a fucking baby

I'm really not as happy as I seem

Nothing's as it seems

Yeah, nothing's as it seems

And I'm all grown up but somehow, lately

I'm acting like a fucking baby

I'm really not that happy being me

I don't like the lie I'm living

I'm way too nice and too forgiving

I wanna go back to the beginning

When it all felt right

A rooftop, Lower East Side, I'm singing

Didn't give a fuck if I was winning

It's all done now, so who am I kidding?

I'm doing way worse than I'm admitting

I think that I should try to kill my ego

'Cause if I don't, my ego might kill me

I'm all grown up but somehow, lately

I'm acting like a fucking baby

I'm really not as happy as I seem

Nothing's as it seems

Yeah, nothing's as it seems

And I'm all grown up but somehow, lately

I'm acting like a fucking baby

I'm really not that happy being me